First frost 2014
I stepped outside this morning to a yard covered in heavy frost. The cabbage that I had left to suck up the last warmth of summer had slumped over and the bucket of rain water had ice on top.
Leaves are turning yellow and the town is overflowing with camouflage dressed people, trailers with boats and 4-wheelers, and campers headed out in the wilderness to hunt moose.
Today the semester started at UAF and I am for the first time in three years not a part of it. I cleared out my desk in the graduate office the other day, which felt strangely melancholic. To me, most things are melancholic during fall, but this really is the end of an era and I am not entirely sure which new era I am entering. What comes after obtaining your master's degree? Well, society tells me I should get a real job, get married and have children. I did get married. Not ready to have the children. So there is this career thing that I "should" be focusing on. I'm just not sure what it is I would like to do. I already miss the freedom of studying, while I also feel more free than ever having left homework, grades and class deadlines behind. I have been a student my whole life. Until now. Now, I have to reinvent who I am and what my goals are. Cultural anthropology can take you pretty much anywhere. I could become an add consultant, work in social science, transition into archeology, do a ph.d. or something I haven't even thought of yet. The world is big, wide and open. I find myself more restless than ever.
Leaves are turning yellow and the town is overflowing with camouflage dressed people, trailers with boats and 4-wheelers, and campers headed out in the wilderness to hunt moose.
Today the semester started at UAF and I am for the first time in three years not a part of it. I cleared out my desk in the graduate office the other day, which felt strangely melancholic. To me, most things are melancholic during fall, but this really is the end of an era and I am not entirely sure which new era I am entering. What comes after obtaining your master's degree? Well, society tells me I should get a real job, get married and have children. I did get married. Not ready to have the children. So there is this career thing that I "should" be focusing on. I'm just not sure what it is I would like to do. I already miss the freedom of studying, while I also feel more free than ever having left homework, grades and class deadlines behind. I have been a student my whole life. Until now. Now, I have to reinvent who I am and what my goals are. Cultural anthropology can take you pretty much anywhere. I could become an add consultant, work in social science, transition into archeology, do a ph.d. or something I haven't even thought of yet. The world is big, wide and open. I find myself more restless than ever.
Personligt paradigmeskift og eksistentielle overvejelser følges ofte ad - og kan skabe uro i maskineriet :) Husk at smile af verdensordenen, Cille! ... og tillad mig så lige at citere en god kammerat: "A career... Probably the most shallow and worthless invention of the 20th century. I'm sure as Hell not getting one!"
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