6 Months Status

My second (and last, unless there is a big surprise in my future) child is six months old this week. Six months with Willum. Six months as a mother of two. Six months of Una being a big sister. Six months of having a son. The list could go on endlessly. In many ways it's been a smooth ride so far. I have recovered well and Willum is a chill baby with zero health issues (not counting those first 48 hours of low blood sugar). But as the dust really starts to settle, I find myself being Oh. So. Tired. I have been going hard fuelled by coffee and sugar and hormones for six months and as I start to find a little time to myself, I also start to feel myself, and I'm not loving what I'm feeling. A mix of exhaustion, unprocessed emotions, aching body (still healing plus currently 22 lb baby) reminds me that I might be six months out, but I'm still POSTPARTUM. I might have lost my pregnancy weight and started exercising. I might have gone out and had some drinks with friends. I might have gone back to work. But, I am still in the process of finding myself both emotionally and physically as a mother of two.